List-less thoughts

This is an atypical blog. I don't have much time tonight before I should head off to ZZZ Territory/Slumberland/BeddyBye, so I figured I'd just share a few thoughts. In a list. Because I've been working with a lot of lists in my Interactive Storytelling class and because compartmentalizing helps sometimes.

1. I used to despise being thought of as fickle, but I do believe that I am someone who is always looking toward bigger and better things.

This isn't to say I'm always the "grass is greener" sort, but I do love thinking that I'm never stuck in one situation. That if I have hopes and dreams, I can achieve anything.

2. High expectations are my single worst vice.

I am a very intense person. I put a lot of thought into things. Rarely anything gets past me. Sometimes I have to pretend that I don't notice things even when I did. It's just the way I am, and if others find it strange...well, that's life.

3. There is a lot of beauty in the world, but most of us fail to pay attention to it.

Today I was struck by how wonderful it is to live indoors. To have a roof over my head, floor under my feet, a bed to sleep in. This is a luxury that I consider a necessity, and it's beautiful that I've been given a life with such ease and simple joy.

4. People are way too complicated for my liking.

When I think something is predictable, the human race proves me wrong. This is my eternal struggle.

5. I am very self-centered.

But aren't we all? And if we aren't, how honest are we being with ourselves?

6. Escapism is the worst, yet most effective form of catharsis.

When I've forgotten my woes, I feel the most freed from them. Even more than when I actively combat them. There's something to be said about the value of escape in the face of perpetually troubled thoughts...that is, it works.

7. Fun is fundamental.

It is hard for me to understand how people find joy in serious careers, or cerebral and unemotional subject matter. I am all about having fun and feeling enthusiasm for everything I do. I wonder if this is true for most people.

8. There's no reason to lie to someone's face.

If you aren't honest, you're likely to show your true self despite your kind façade. Why even try to pretend you're someone who you're not?

9. Time inspires very contradictory emotions.

It ticks away and stresses us out, but when we have some of it to spare, it has the most relaxing presence of anything in this world. Time is a frenemy to all.

10. Sometimes this all feels too weird to be true.

Who are you all, anyway? As my dad and I have discussed a couple of times recently, it is so strange to think that when you are in a public place, you are surrounded by people who are part of your story, but who have stories of their own. We're all separate, but intertwined.

That's it. I think I'm going to do more of these in the future. It's a bit weird, I guess, but it was the blog I needed right now.

Goodnight.